[ He smiles a bit, a tired thing that hits his lips for only a few moments before disappearing. Yeah, he lives in the land of gray areas. It's nice for someone to get that, especially so quickly.

It's rare for him to fully come clean about things, but sometimes it feels necessary. In this instance? He feels a little relieved. Maybe he shouldn't feel like that, but if there's one thing about Sam Winchester its he will always feel a little different. Maybe not fully like a monster, not like he used to, but still. Different. ]

We should. Wonder how many members we would get around this place. [ He's thinking at least more than the two of them. Looking down in his cup, he sees he's finished with his water so he pushes himself up to stand, taking the cup over to the sink to set it down. ] I don't really talk about this stuff that much. Kind of hard, you know, with the life I lead. The only person I've got is Dean. And Cas, now.

[ As opposed to when he was younger and felt like he had nobody. Going to college, making friends, having Jess in his life - he had been so happy, but it had all been a lie. The friends had been demons, he was never going to have any kind of normal life, and Jess...well. Even now, thinking about her leaves him feeling hollow. ]