[ This? This is a face he recognizes, and he's relieved to see him. Being told Cas is his friend is one thing, but Dean doesn't feel that connection; he feels something, though, and he can't tell what that is, if it's something like a phantom limb where he almost but doesn't quite get there.
Benny, though; seeing his face calms Dean and also reminds him of saying goodbye, of sending him back to that place with half a mind that he wouldn't see him again, and he didn't. It's not like he was surprised, but it still hurt, and it ached, too; it hurt that Benny didn't come back, but he knew why, understood why, and that was a different kind of ache. ]
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Benny, though; seeing his face calms Dean and also reminds him of saying goodbye, of sending him back to that place with half a mind that he wouldn't see him again, and he didn't. It's not like he was surprised, but it still hurt, and it ached, too; it hurt that Benny didn't come back, but he knew why, understood why, and that was a different kind of ache. ]
Benny. It's... It's good to see you, man.