The first thought Jesse has is that Galen is most definitely going to be a mess. Galen, and Kenzi. His stomach drops so far he feels like he's on a roller coaster, and then comes right back up, knocking his heart into his throat. They'll be a mess - and really, it looks like... Ned's a mess. Ned, with his shaking, his exhausted look and tears, has taken it harder than Jesse thought he would, and - Jesse doesn't know why. He doesn't get it - because he knows how fucking angry he would've been if Ned had been killed, would've been - it would've been bad.
But Jesse doesn't expect that in return. He never does. He's not worth this amount of pain.
So Ned breaks, and Jesse doesn't really think about it, just moves. They're both shaking and they're both upset and Jesse feels a little less hazy when he pulls Ned back into a hug. Nothing, nothing, emptiness and the sensation of bleeding to death and just, Ned, don't mind if he pushes so close it's like he's trying to crawl into your chest. He needs to reassure himself that there is another living, breathing human right here, right now.
Maybe it's a little selfish, but Jesse isn't thinking about it. His breathing shakes and stutters and struggles, but he doesn't cry. That'll come later, when he can't hold himself together with tape and glue.
He can't speak very well right now, with his lungs flipping out like they are and the cold settling into his bones, but he tries. ] S-sorry. [ He isn't exactly sure what he did, but - the apology feels right in a sea of wrong. ]
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The first thought Jesse has is that Galen is most definitely going to be a mess. Galen, and Kenzi. His stomach drops so far he feels like he's on a roller coaster, and then comes right back up, knocking his heart into his throat. They'll be a mess - and really, it looks like... Ned's a mess. Ned, with his shaking, his exhausted look and tears, has taken it harder than Jesse thought he would, and - Jesse doesn't know why. He doesn't get it - because he knows how fucking angry he would've been if Ned had been killed, would've been - it would've been bad.
But Jesse doesn't expect that in return. He never does. He's not worth this amount of pain.
So Ned breaks, and Jesse doesn't really think about it, just moves. They're both shaking and they're both upset and Jesse feels a little less hazy when he pulls Ned back into a hug. Nothing, nothing, emptiness and the sensation of bleeding to death and just, Ned, don't mind if he pushes so close it's like he's trying to crawl into your chest. He needs to reassure himself that there is another living, breathing human right here, right now.
Maybe it's a little selfish, but Jesse isn't thinking about it. His breathing shakes and stutters and struggles, but he doesn't cry. That'll come later, when he can't hold himself together with tape and glue.
He can't speak very well right now, with his lungs flipping out like they are and the cold settling into his bones, but he tries. ] S-sorry. [ He isn't exactly sure what he did, but - the apology feels right in a sea of wrong. ]