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[owe-him-a-debt.livejournal.com]

[Natalia looks at the screen and tilts her head.]

I'm going to take this time to... clear up any confusion.

[This just seems, easier. No expectations from anyone for her to behave in a certain way, because they think she's someone that shes not.]

Some of you have already been made aware that there is another version of myself here. This is my notice to the rest of you of this information. There are two versions of myself present here, the other is more closely affiliated with many of the others here that might expect that I am.

Perhaps, this will message will help clear the air, and prevent any further broken expectations or bruised feelings. I am not her, she is not me.

[Private to James Barnes (Winter Soldier)]

I know you're here. I've seen hints of you around, Dzheyms. And yet, you make no attempt to contact me. I'm tired of chasing shadows, Lyubvi...I wish to see you.

[/Private]

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[owe-him-a-debt.livejournal.com]

I hear that.

[Ff.. confused confused confused. But she meant...disorientating.. or irritating for his senses. Whatever whatever, bro.]

Good. Oh.. I also heard you had a little fun out there in the woods involving some sort of bear things?

[plaidsamurai]

Yea, it was fun until they cheated. [He grins.] I was doin' pretty good, big robotic bear lookin' things, real big, lots of sharp bits. Like I said, I was doing good, apparently too good, cause they just drugged me up and called it a tie and dragged me back to the edge of the woods. If nothin' else, I guess, we can rely on 'em to knock us out in a jam.

[owe-him-a-debt.livejournal.com]

Then there's probably not a chance that we could take them if we were together.. Or if you take one down and get knocked out I could drag parts back?

[Yes, she is aware that someone is watching, and clearly gives no fucks about it.]

[plaidsamurai]

Feels like... they let it go far enough to see how much I could do, maybe humor me a bit, but then they got bored and wanted to very clearly show me that they could put a stop to it anytime they wanted. Hell, they could have stopped me before I stepped two feet into the forest if they'd wanted.

They're in control here, Nat. Until we can figure out anything... that ain't gonna change.

[owe-him-a-debt.livejournal.com]

[She clearly is not a fan of this idea.

At ALL.

But she rubs a hand over her face and nods.]

Alright. It was a stretch at best.

[plaidsamurai]

[He switches to private, though it seems pointless. They're still listening.]

[He knew he needed to shut up, but really, of everyone here only Natalia and Sharon would understand what he was talking about. The creatures in the woods, whoever was controlling them, didn't just let him survive, it wasn't a fluke, they weren't surprised by his healing factor; they'd tested a little, maybe had a laugh, and then decided that was enough. Everything was controlled, his clothes had been torn up a bit, but he'd been more than fine, and he was positive he hadn't been knocked out because of something combat-related.]

The only time I've... experienced shit like that, Nat. I was hooked up in a lab.

[owe-him-a-debt.livejournal.com]

[She leans forward, as though that's going to help him understand that she gets that. That's what scares her the most about this place..

The sketchy lab-ish feeling. The way this all feels like some sort of elaborate experiment. How she can't be sure that... they aren't going to poke around in her head again. She GETS it. She HATES it. And she wants to do SOMETHING about it.]

I'm sorry. We need to think of something. I refuse to sit here and let them...use me, use any of us, for whatever this is they're doing. I've been a lab rat before to, Logan. I don't want to do it again.

[plaidsamurai]

I know you have. [His voice is low and grave. They've both been used, probably more times than either even knows. Used and recycled, made into something else, only to be used again.]

Not sure what we can do... think I might try something later, though. See what happens.

[owe-him-a-debt.livejournal.com]

What if it happens that they turn us against each other... [Turn her against everyone....more to the point. James is out there.. And he's not right, it wouldn't be hard to do that to her...team them up together. No one would be safe.]

[plaidsamurai]

We'll be dealin' with that when it happens, Nat. Don' worry 'bout it 'til then. [And by 'deal', he meant they'd be taking down and imprisoning anyone who was brainwashed. From there he wasn't sure, there'd probably be a lot of decisions to be made.]

[owe-him-a-debt.livejournal.com]

[She nods. She hears you, between you and Sharon she trusts you will handle things.]

I'll do my best.