[ video - day 206 ]

[lost_my_shoe]

[ Private video to Jo Harvelle ]

[ Remember how much older and more tired Sam looked when you first arrived, Jo? Well, he looks a whole lot worse now. Don't take it personally. The last few days have been hard for him. ]

Hey... You still up for that drink?

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[lost_my_shoe]

He tricked me into letting an angel possess me! That wasn't his call. I should've had that choice!

[ Sam has a right to be pissed, right? ]

[knifecollecting]

[Jo has no idea.]

What would you have chose?

[lost_my_shoe]

To be honest? I got no idea. The way I felt at the time... probably woulda chosen to die.

[knifecollecting]

[Pardon Jo for looking a little heartbroken at that.]

Dean can never let you go.

[lost_my_shoe]

[ Sorry Jo. But he was in a really bad way at the time. ]

I know. But one day he's gonna have to...

[knifecollecting]

It'll take a lot of work.

[lost_my_shoe]

Course, if Cas is right and Dean is dead back home... We might not be able to bring him back.

Might be me that has to let go.

[knifecollecting]

Can you?

[lost_my_shoe]

[ That right there is the million dollar question, Jo. ]

I don't know. I thought I could. But maybe I can't. I mean, I guess I kinda did when he was in Purgatory. I didn't know if he was dead or alive or where to even start looking so I just... didn't.

I lived a normal life. And I was kinda happy for once.

But knowing Metatron killed him? I dunno.

[knifecollecting]

[Oh, Sam. You Winchester boys never really get out, do you? She reaches across the table to refill his glass and sighs.]

I'm sorry, Sam. I wish I could do something.

[lost_my_shoe]

[ They try. But there's always something waiting just around the corner to drag them right back in. Sam's been trying to get out of this gig since he left for college and he's still trying.

Maybe he'll never get out. He'll be just like his dad or Bobby or Rufus. ]

You've done more than you know. Feels good to talk. Thanks, Jo.

[knifecollecting]

I'm good at listening to people while they drink. [She laughs quietly, lifting her own glass in a sarcastic toast.

She hasn't been a bartender in years, but she'll still listen to the Winchesters if they're willing to talk.]

[lost_my_shoe]

[ He can drink to that! And he fills their glasses up again. Who needs a healthy, functioning liver? Although when the hangover and the worshiping of the porcelain gods kicks in, he might reconsider whether or not this was a good idea. ]

You know if you ever want the favour returning... I'm a pretty good listener myself.

[knifecollecting]

[Hangover shouldn't deter him.]

What do I have to talk about? [Lots of things, but shh.]

[lost_my_shoe]

I dunno. But I'm sure there must be something. You know where to find me - anytime.

[knifecollecting]

We'll see. Don't hold your breath. [Jo isn't in the habit of sharing, really.]

[lost_my_shoe]

Well even if you don't feel like talking, we could always watch movies or something...

[knifecollecting]

[She laughs now.]

Are there legit movies here or is it like, the straight to home video ripoffs of stuff?

[lost_my_shoe]

Well, I got my laptop. Looks like all the stuff's still on my hard drive.

[knifecollecting]

That sounds great. [She laughs quietly.]

I haven't watched a movie in so long.

[lost_my_shoe]

It's a date then. Or well, not a date. Though it could be a date - if you wanted it to be.

[ Sam, stop it! You're just flustering yourself. ]

[knifecollecting]

Hold up, Winchester.

[...She's not over your brother.]

It's just a movie with friends.

[lost_my_shoe]

[ Jeez. What does everyone even see in Dean? ]

Right, yeah, course. Friends is good.

[knifecollecting]

[Sounds like someone has some big brother issues.]

Look, it'd be weird, right? [So weird. That's why it's not happening.]

[lost_my_shoe]

[ He doesn't have big brother issues. He has Dean is a jerk issues. There's a difference. It's only a slight difference, but a difference all the same. ]

Yeah, I get it. Friends is good. [ Especially since he doesn't have many of those! ]